Friday, July 31, 2009
Just a note...
Keep this little girl, Kate, in your prayers!
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
Frustrating, but....
I've got to believe God has a plan.
Today I got a call from my optometrist's office. They tried to make me an appt with the Neurologist at UNC but apparently they have to review my "referral" and it can be up to a year's wait to get in to see them because they're a "learning facility." Which is irritating...what good is great healthcare in this country if we can't get a hold of it when we need it?!
Anyway, I have decided as a result to go ahead with my doctor's appt tomorrow and get bloodwork done there and then go on and get referred by them to a neurologist that can at least go on and get me an MRI.
But go ahead and PRAY that there is an answer in my bloodwork. Maybe, by some miracle, I won't need an MRI to explain these symptoms. 3 years ago when they did my bloodwork they found nothing. Maybe this time there will be a simple explanation.
Please keep me in your prayers, especially at 2:45 pm tomorrow.
Thanks guys!
Today I got a call from my optometrist's office. They tried to make me an appt with the Neurologist at UNC but apparently they have to review my "referral" and it can be up to a year's wait to get in to see them because they're a "learning facility." Which is irritating...what good is great healthcare in this country if we can't get a hold of it when we need it?!
Anyway, I have decided as a result to go ahead with my doctor's appt tomorrow and get bloodwork done there and then go on and get referred by them to a neurologist that can at least go on and get me an MRI.
But go ahead and PRAY that there is an answer in my bloodwork. Maybe, by some miracle, I won't need an MRI to explain these symptoms. 3 years ago when they did my bloodwork they found nothing. Maybe this time there will be a simple explanation.
Please keep me in your prayers, especially at 2:45 pm tomorrow.
Thanks guys!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Oh, and not to mention...
I have read the bible today. I have started on the "hope journal" which is basically just verses my church gives us every day and asks us to study them.
As I've been reading, here are the things I believe God wanted me to hear...
Isaiah 57
"I have seen his ways, but I will heal him;
I will guide him and restore comfort to him, creating praise on the lips of the mourners in Israel.
Peace, peace, to those far and near,"
says the LORD. "And I will heal them."
Isaiah 58: "Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness will go before you,
and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
"If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
And , ALL of Psalm 103:
Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases, = who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed. He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel: The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust. As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone,and its place remembers it no more. But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children- with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts. The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all. Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word. Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will. Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, O my soul.
and 2 Peter 3:
But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
As I've been reading, here are the things I believe God wanted me to hear...
Isaiah 57
"I have seen his ways, but I will heal him;
I will guide him and restore comfort to him, creating praise on the lips of the mourners in Israel.
Peace, peace, to those far and near,"
says the LORD. "And I will heal them."
Isaiah 58: "Then your light will break forth like the dawn,
and your healing will quickly appear;
then your righteousness will go before you,
and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;
you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
"If you do away with the yoke of oppression,
with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
And , ALL of Psalm 103:
Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases, = who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed. He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel: The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever; he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him; for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust. As for man, his days are like grass, he flourishes like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone,and its place remembers it no more. But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children- with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts. The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all. Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word. Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will. Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.
Praise the LORD, O my soul.
and 2 Peter 3:
But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.
Today is a new day
Today I....
-Got up and did not feel sorry for myself
-Immediately got dinner together and put it in the crockpot
-Enjoyed my kids and went for a nice refreshing walk
-listened to some christian music on the radio
-Watched the movie Faith like Potatoes
-Had a nice talk with my mom on the phone
-prayed
-visited with a friend of mine and was able to give her some good financial advice while taking my mind off of my issues
-smiled and felt at peace for the first time in a few days.
Today I did NOT...
-cry
-constantly check my vision for new spots
-shout at my kids
-forget to eat
-constantly whine and ask God, "WHY ME?"
-Listen to the lies of the devil
-Try and sleep my way through the day
-give up my peace of mind.
I'd say today has been a GOOD DAY!!
-Got up and did not feel sorry for myself
-Immediately got dinner together and put it in the crockpot
-Enjoyed my kids and went for a nice refreshing walk
-listened to some christian music on the radio
-Watched the movie Faith like Potatoes
-Had a nice talk with my mom on the phone
-prayed
-visited with a friend of mine and was able to give her some good financial advice while taking my mind off of my issues
-smiled and felt at peace for the first time in a few days.
Today I did NOT...
-cry
-constantly check my vision for new spots
-shout at my kids
-forget to eat
-constantly whine and ask God, "WHY ME?"
-Listen to the lies of the devil
-Try and sleep my way through the day
-give up my peace of mind.
I'd say today has been a GOOD DAY!!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Went to the Optometrist...
And surprise, surprise there is nothing wrong with my eye. But I do have a very small blindspot. They just can't find what would cause it. Good news is , they have referred me to Dr. Felix, the neurologist. Which means that I can skip out on the visit to the family doc on Friday! One less copay and one less time to explain my laundry list of symptoms.
I went to medhelp.org (an online medical community) and I found a few people that have this blind spot symptom (exactly like mine). One girl in particular had it back in May and went to a neurologist- I have written her to ask her what her outcome was. At least I know I'm not a freak and I'm NOT making this all up- she has EXACTLY what I have!! (as far as the 'blindspot' goes)
What the optometrist DID say was that if it were something big neurologically (as in a tumor or MS) then usually there would be something going on with the optic nerve (there wasn't) or the blind spot would be significantly bigger (it's not). So there it is.
Keep praying for me while I seek answers. My BIGGEST fear is that this blind spot will get bigger or more will appear and they will be powerless to stop it because they cannot figure out what is causing it.
I will continue to keep you updated. I should find out when my neuro appt is today so I will post and let you know.
I went to medhelp.org (an online medical community) and I found a few people that have this blind spot symptom (exactly like mine). One girl in particular had it back in May and went to a neurologist- I have written her to ask her what her outcome was. At least I know I'm not a freak and I'm NOT making this all up- she has EXACTLY what I have!! (as far as the 'blindspot' goes)
What the optometrist DID say was that if it were something big neurologically (as in a tumor or MS) then usually there would be something going on with the optic nerve (there wasn't) or the blind spot would be significantly bigger (it's not). So there it is.
Keep praying for me while I seek answers. My BIGGEST fear is that this blind spot will get bigger or more will appear and they will be powerless to stop it because they cannot figure out what is causing it.
I will continue to keep you updated. I should find out when my neuro appt is today so I will post and let you know.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Eye doc appt today at 4:30pm
Okay, just set up an eye appt. today for my "blind spot." Again, I am very scared. Please pray for me.
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